I feel empty and disconnected from everything and everyone. I feel shut down. I interact with the world, and on the surface everything appears normal, but underneath there's nothing. No texture, no depth. None of the vibrance that should be there.
It reminds me of the story "The Langoliers" by Stephen King. It's in his book "Four Past Midnight". For those who haven't read it, the brief description is that people get caught in the recent past where everything is stale; colors, tastes, smells, and sounds are washed away to flatness, a mere echo of their former selves. The vibrance and resonance of life is gone.
That's a fairly close approximation to what I'm experiencing. I realize that sounds melodramatic, but it's a decent description of how I'm feeling.
If you haven't read it, it's a very good novella. I hadn't thought about it before, but the story is a good metaphor for dropping into and overcoming depression.
That's a fairly close approximation to what I'm experiencing. I realize that sounds melodramatic, but it's a decent description of how I'm feeling.
If you haven't read it, it's a very good novella. I hadn't thought about it before, but the story is a good metaphor for dropping into and overcoming depression.
My apologies. I'm a bit philosophical tonight.
2 comments:
I can relate with what you're saying. It's kinda like you're going thru all the motions of life, but nothing is really touching you?
I think on top of being bipolar, as females we've got additional hormonal stuff to deal with, so it's like a double whammy.
Your reflections seem perfectly normal to me.
jane, I think you're right. hormones thrown into the mix just makes it that much more fun, doesn't it.
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