A golden opportunity

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We're buying a house! We came across it today and it's wonderful. It's got so much potential. It's not even on the market yet. I'm going to see about a mortgage tomorrow.

It's got 3 bedrooms, 1 1/2 baths, a 2 car garage, nice sized front and back yards, big front and back porches, 2 sheds in back, and landscaping including a gorgeous huge tree. It's small, probably 1200 sq. ft. or so, but that's ok. Hopefully soon it will be just Hubby and me. We don't need that much space. And really anything is better than the 900 sq. ft. crappy mobile home we live in now.

It's in a nice quiet neighborhood filled with people who have lived there at least a decade and all the houses appear well cared for.

They're asking around $85,000 for it. That means our mortgage payment would only be around $550.00 or so. Definitely doable.

This is just a golden opportunity that fell right into our laps. If we don't reach out and grab it, we'll regret it. And later on when we move up to a bigger house, it'll make a great rent house for us.

The woman selling it said if someone were to tell her they wanted to buy it, she wouldn't even put it on the market. I told her we were very interested in buying it when she's ready to sell it.

I want this house! And I want it now!

I'm so revved up right now. I have been all day, really. I've been talking a mile a minute all day to anyone who'll listen to me. And I could talk all night, I just don't have anyone to talk to.

My CBT class was cancelled for today, but I did my scores anyway. Not too bad, I guess. The anxiety and depression scores both dropped by about half, and the emotional score went down quite a bit as well.

I guess it's because I've been in such a good mood these past several days. And full of ideas. I'm not manic, but I'd say I'm probably hypomanic. That's not a bad way to be. I know that I wrote before when I first started cycling about how even though I could feel the changes, I dreaded them because I could remember what the calm and balance felt like. I wanted to hold onto those. And I was pissed off because I couldn't. I didn't want the chaos.

Well, I can't remember what they felt like now. That's ok, though. I know from my writing that I didn't want to be manic. What was I, an idiot? This is the best feeling in the world. I'm hyper-creative, hyper-effecient, everything has fallen into place. Everything is enhanced and it's glorious! Why on earth would I have not wanted this?? Momentary lapse into stupidity, I guess.

I was irritated that my class was cancelled, but in hindsight it was the best thing that could have happened. After all, if I'd been at my class, I wouldn't have seen this house and grabbed the opportunity. And this hypomania is giving me the courage and optimism to go for this house.

But I'll admit, I missed being in class today. It keeps me grounded a bit. Gives me a barometer for my behavior and moods, because honestly - sometimes it's hard for me to judge it myself. That's ok, though. I'm sure they would have thought I was in a great mood and very fun to be around. I'm a wonderful person to be around when I'm feeling like this. Everyone loves me.

It's great to be me. :-)