I'm very sad. Today was hard, it being Father's Day. My dad died last July and I missed him a lot today.
I can't put much of what I'm feeling into words right now. I just want to curl up on my bed and cry, but the tears won't come. I can sense them, but they're locked up and I don't know how to unlock them.
That's been happening a lot lately. Me not being able to identify and express how I'm feeling. It's peculiar (not to mention frustrating as all hell) to be feeling something almost overpowering in intensity but not be able to tell what it is, to put a name to it. I've never had this problem before that I can remember.
Also, I've been having weird dreams, and several nightmares as well. Last night was the worst. I dreamed that Hubby was killed while trying to rescue me from an attack. I woke up sitting straight up in bed on the verge of screaming. It was so realistic. I had to take an anti-anxiety med to be able to get back to sleep.
I'm so tired of all this confusion and pain. I yearn for stability, but fear I'll never find it.
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I'm so sorry about your dad. I lost mine 13 years ago and while it isn't as raw, I still miss him tremendously.
The frustration about finding labels for feelings is one of the areas where blogging has helped me so much. You can take your time to explain your feelings without verbally having to have the exact word or worry that you may lose someone's attention while trying to define it. It especially helps just to get the feeling 'out' there and know you aren't alone. And you aren't. :)
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